disintegrate

rate

i am not perfect. i just need assurance from you two. (:

i closed this chapter of my life now. i dont want to think anymore. i just want to live each day and be happy. Laughter is the best medicine, they say.

i am going to be the child YOU want me to be.

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oh how many times have I broken Your heart
but still You forgivei
if only I ask
and how many times have You heard me pray
draw near to me

everything I need is You
my beginning, my forever
everything I need is You

played badminton, went to church and went abi's house for dinner.
it was a good day. (:

got a call at 8 pm from dad informing us that mum was going to hospital.
her blood pressure went up really high and the clinic's doctor advised her to go to the hospital for a full checkup. at that moment when i got the call, i just had flashbacks about having that big fight with her in the morning. i guess it is moments like these that u regret ur actions because i could jolly well lose someone i loved. i gave her a big hug when i saw her and i cried too. i do need to learn and treasure pple around me especially my mum.

YOU have really taught me a great lesson today. (:

thank God for friends who cared and prayed along with me for my mum. it is moments like these that u are grateful for the spiritual support that God has given to you. i love you guys. :D

latest update : she is better but right now, we are still quite worried that if the blood pressure does not go down, she might suffer a stroke/heart attack.

pls keep her in your prayers. thanks. (:

adele is right. God is great. And even in times like these, i will still say that because i trust that He will heal her. (:

everything I need is You
my beginning, my forever
everything I need is You

12.18 am. i think i have changed. i have changed into someone that i am starting to dislike. God has revealed so much about myself and i dont really like what i see. i want to have more of You and less of me. i want more of Jesus to be revealed in my life and not someone who takes in control of her own life.

fill me with unspeakable joy
that can only come from YOU.

rainy days and lack of sleep.
i watched the rain pour till i fell asleep last night.
but i only had 4 hours of sleep before i had to rush to school.

watched flightplan today. it was a pretty exciting movie.
but there are loopholes here and there and the movie seemed really abrupt at times.
but nonetheless, go watch!! (:

was half dead while shopping.
thank God for coffee club's orea milkshake. :D

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rainy days are blissful. i like snuggling in bed while it pours outside.
i thank God for every moment that He allows me to stand in awe of His creation.

raindrops keep falling on my head

happy 19th bday, yingmei!
love love. (:

7/eighties finally got together. BLISS. (:

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i wish i can be oblivious about certain things.
but it is not in my nature to do so because i do care about ppl's feelings.
so i choose to stand on this side and just watch you all.

someday we will know

ikea day.
chicken wings and french fries. (:

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no one knows how i am feeling inside.
but it is okay.
i give thanks for the bad things that are happening now.
live and let live. i have to do that and stop thinking. (:

yes, wake up and smell the roses.
God is forever good.

i like staring out of the window while it is raining outside.
i like munching on sun maid raisins while daydreaming.

bliss. (:

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hope has found its home within me
now that i have been found in YOU.

she knows she is loved.
she is because she has people who really loves her for who she is.
she believes that because she has hope in the living God that things will get better.

pls look at me from the inside.

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You are my strength and my song

caught up with ruth yesterday. it has been a long time since two of us went out together. we had a heart to heart talk updating about our lives. YOU do answer prayers. i am happy. (:

note aside :

what will i do without her? my turn to make you happy for one day. you still owe me one week of happiness. HAHA. :D

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I'm speeding by the place that I met you
For the ninety-seventh time

i bought a ticket to

the end of the rainbow

a new change. (:
sometimes it is good to change into something you are not.
because this is what life is about.
it is about changes and learning to adapt to them.

i realised how blessed i am.
in everything, give thanks.
i should wake up and start seeing
God's creation in front of me.
i am amazed by God, did you hear me?

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God is really working in our lives.
i see ourselves working hard for this friendship.
love you, dumbdumb. :D

In love You came
And gave amazing grace

words dont come easy.
but i am finally done with my term paper.
yes and amen.

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i willingly accepted to lead worship for vcf this week.
use me and make me an instrument of YOURS
i will let you lead.

'i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.'

YES AND AMEN!

give me back one moment in time

the weekends. :)

i have 6 more pages to write for my social work term paper. yes, i need to find the joy to write this paper. i kept humming " i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" today and it has lifted up my spirits. Your strength is made perfect when i am weak. :d

God has been amazing.

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I'll just close my eyes
and know YOU are there.

here in my heart

there is a picture of you

i am doomed already. i dont understand anything that i am reading from my eng notes. AND THE TEST IS TML! oops. *faints.

let the weekend come quick. one more assignment and i am home free. :D

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can you hear
the trees in the fields they are clapping their hands
can you feel
there is strength in the air
that runs through my veins
i can hear
i can hear
the voice in the dark

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YOU ALONE ARE THE STRENGTH OF MY HEART.

hello tueday morning. (:

hell week. 2 geog projects, one social work term paper due next monday and eng test this friday. i am spending all my free time trying to finish everything. i have NO LIFE right now! :(

it is okay. i will survive. one day gone and 6 more days to go. HAHA. :D

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i waited all my life to cross this line
to the only thing that is true.

idol-chasing-day. Today was simply fun. HAHA. Choi and i had a good time waving to our new eyecandy. He is sooooo sweet. We had the best position at the door and he could only see us so i started waving and HE WAVED BACK! that made me day. :)

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really tired. i am walking into geog practical alone. yes, i have to learn to be independant and make friends. SMILE! :)

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tough week ahead. rely on HIS strength, jeanette. (:

deleted. God is hinting something.

'God is giving you a challenge'
- annoymous

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reign in me.
my hope lies in YOU

watched corpse bride today. it was a rather nice show but i realised that tim burton really likes to add songs inside his movies. HAHA.

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yes, the weekend is finally here. YIPEE! :D

find joy.

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whom shall i fear
i am yours

i slept in late and read my latest book that i borrowed from Sans Bookstore. i am almost done! :D
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it was eating day for Jeanette and looking-at-jeanette-eat-day for Farisa. It was for our geog project and we went into thai express and sakura taking pics of their menus and dishes in secret.i had to pretend to pose at the camera while farisa took pics of the signboard. It was so throw face but i had good fun. i was so full after eating at sakura but i still had to drag myself to eat again at thai express. i ended ordering a fruit platter for $5.50! That was so dumb and people must be thinking we are crazy! HAHA. but it was fun fun fun. :D

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i somehow find, that you and i collide.

2 months in. It is really weird because just last year around this time, i was dragging to go church and looking forward to go school but right now, it is the reverse. HAHA. yes, i do admit i feel insecured right now but like what Greg said : " SMILE MORE!" i thank God for friends who just remind me a little of myself each day. yes, i do need to perservere on. (:

and YES, i thank HIM for the simple things in life that made me happy too.

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You say come to me
and I will come to You
only You can fill my heart
with Your love